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Got this for my birthday from Aywas... Yay. I really like it. Then they gave me a Metal Custom Crystal... Thats good cause I've been making Melos like crazy... They are still sorta basic (Which for this custom its okay) but they look better each time I paint another in photoshop.
That bomb, It went OFF. In my face, direct hit.
I've been pretty much hating my job since the move. Hating it. I used to LOVE it. My (Probably, pretty sure) Ex Bosses are both... I don't know... Abusive? One talks very DOWN to me... while the other one... Well, I guess he only wants best for the store. He for the most part is nice, but he has a rather dark side.... I think I pretty much quit the job. I'm sorry, no IDLS for sale if I'm not there. I was hoping to do that.............. I don't think I should have been treated like they've been treating me. Like an ant that just got stepped on and someone stepping on it to make sure its dead/juice is out... If I come home like that nearly every night like this, I don't belong there. I am just not good enough for the store's standards. I saw the Applications going around... Wanted to replace me... If I am just a problem for the store... Have the balls to tell me I'm not working out for the store anymore. Sure, I am sad about this crap... I can get a better job. I will probably get treated better too. Maybe not, but atleast I can be away from those two abusers. Not only that... I felt Harassed all the time I worked. Atleast from one in particular.... Gosh, I don't need this. Yes, they had some issues with me... Sure, I can have an attitude... Look in the mirror lately king-boy?
Don't make me laugh dude... I heard you in the back yelling between the lines. He needs to know what I am going to do... Uhh, told you. Re-read the speak-easy on the texts. I don't want to go back.... That is SO unhealthy to be around anyway. Weather the one realizes he is doing it or not... I feel for them, but I am not a robot. Nor do I want to be.. I want to be ME. I haven't been able to do that since the change....Sad thing is... I haven't realized how much I wasn't being me until a few minutes ago. I've always been taught, respect, trust and reflect. Respect the people around you, hope they respect you back... Trust, fairness.... Reflection, If its not you.... Look again... Then remember who you are, if it doesn't match... well, revert. Sadly, Reverting means quitting. That's pretty tough here, but I know I can find a better place.............. My actual happiness is being effected here.
Meanwhile, I'm missing family things for that place. Today is my birthday of all days. I miss hanging out with my parents. (I do that) My wonderful nieces and nephews... Some I haven't seen since the holidays or even longer then that. I am a very family oriented person.... They make me who I am too.
One thing that has always been important to me...
BE Who YOU are, Nobody else. If someone tells you are lame for it, let 'em. At least you will be Happy.
Be who you are, Everyone else has been taken.
Be LOVED for who YOU are.
One more thing to say. NO. Good Bye, I bid the store luck.
My god I love my parents.