I aM tHe WaLrUs

[Bunny_grl07]

See, that's what I think a lot of this year's idol contestants lack.

I just think the there's only a couple who I would really enjoy watching.

Although, I only saw one episode recently. And I wasn't impressed.

Lucy closed her eyes and tried to think of times and events and people that would make her feel better. Eventually, her mind just focused on Asher, and how close they were, and how he had fought to defend her. She'd never had that happen to her before; all of the other protests she had been to had gone fine. Well, most of them, anyway. Eventually, she said to him, "I love you so much, Asher. I'll always run to you, whenever I need help."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I agree. I mean, a guy like Adam is so tough to follow. He was so huge and controversial and so great that this year seems even more dull than before.

Crystal has to win it. She's the only one who I believe has what it takes.

Asher kissed her hair and smiled reassuringly at her. "And I'll always be here when you need somebody to run to.. For absolutely anything, you can come to me," he told her. And he meant it; he would be there no matter what it was that she needed. "I love you, too."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I saw her, and I don't know if I'm really a fan.

Lucy smiled slightly, then murmured, "I'm exhausted. Do you think it would be okay for me to take a nap?" She moved to get to her feet, having to sit down again, though, once her head started spinning.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I love her <3

"As if you have to ask if it's okay, Lucy." Asher had been ready to take her, knowing she may find it difficult to walk there. When she sat back in his lap, he picked her up once more and took her through to her room, and set her down gingerly on her bed. He crouched beside her bedside and stroked her hair, "Can I get you anything? Or do you just wanna go to sleep right now?"

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I don't really like any of them that much. S:

Lucy murmured, "I want to sleep right now, but... would you... would you mind staying here with me?" She felt unsafe; she could still feel the blows, the terror of her agonizing experience. And all she wanted was for someone to hold her, and protect her.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Casey is really hot. But really predictable and boring.

But, meh, apart from Crystal, I agree with you. Adam Lambert, Kelly Clarkson and Carrie Underwood are the best contestants to come out of it.

Asher nodded and got up. He laid down next to her, and gently pulled her into his arms, his chest against her back. He wasn't tired, and wouldn't be able to sleep. But he would happily lie there with her in his arms if that was what she needed him to do for her to feel safe and to sleep, for however long, too. He kissed her hair affectionately and was silent after that.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Most definitely!

I was a Kelly Clarkson fan all during the first season.

Lucy snuggled close to him, closing her eyes. But she couldn't sleep at all. Every time that she would drift off, her attacker's face would flash in her mind, she relived the moments of pain in the park over and over again. When she did sleep, it was fitful, with Lucy murmuring, breaking into a cold sweat.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I never saw the first series when it was out. But I took tine to watch some of it over, when I started to get to know Kelly's music. She's definitely come on a heck of a way, though she was great to start with. You know what I also like about her? She writes her own stuff. I admire than in anyone, but particularly in a TV talent show contestant. It's rare.

Asher could only try to comfort Lucy as best as he could. He knew she was still scared, still reliving that horrific ordeal. He was, too. But at least he had only been watching, and wasn't the victim. He had no idea how he could make her feel better and good enough to sleep soundly. He'd tried everything. But he was patient, soothing her each time she let out a sign of pain.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Her stuff is so good! It has heart, which is really awesome.

Lucy eventually turned so she could bury her face in his chest, curling up into him completely. "Asher..." She whispered, tears in her eyes. "I'm so screwed up now. I don't see why you're still here with me right now. I'm such a loser."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Agreed =D

Noooonooonoooooooo! Mary J Blige just KILLED Stairway to Heaven on Idol!!! Dx

Asher held her tighter. Little did she know, but there were tears in his own eyes, too. Of course, it hurt him to see her so upset and broken, but it wasn't the only reason. "Lucy, I could never leave you in any state, especially when you need me more than ever," he said. "Being afraid.. Doesn't make you a loser.. Thinking about it all the time doesn't make you a loser. It was terrifying for me, so God only knows what it was like for you.." He paused, and took a deep breath. "I had a twin sister, you know. She and I went to a rally. Things got out of hand, and she got caught in it. Her injuries were life threatening, and she could just never forget what had happened to her. She died through exerting herself too much while she screamed. She was afraid, she was a mess. But she had reason to be. She wasn't a loser, and neither are you. And I stayed with her until the very end. Thankfully, you'll be okay physically in time."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

.... Idol has become a fail, in my opinion. It used to be so awesome, but now... bleh.

OH! I'm submitting an audition video for glee! (at least, I think I am)

Lucy looked up at him, gently wiping his tears away with her fingertips, then kissed his forehead. "Oh Asher... Asher, I'm so sorry for what happened," she whispered, her voice cracking slightly because of emotion. She pressed him against herself, kissing him tenderly.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I agree, it's not good at all anymore. I only watched last year because of Adam, and I guess I just watch it now because I have nothing better to do on a Wednesday night.

If you got into Glee, then I'd definitely watch =D You go girl!

Asher shook his head and said, "You don't have to apologise, you had nothing to do with it, Lucy. I hadn't planned on saying anything about it.. But it's the only way I thought I would get you to believe me about how you're dealing with what happened and not me just being s biased boyfriend. She always said she'd be prepared to die for something she believed in. I just never thought it'd be that way." He kissed her in return lovingly.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I don't know which song I should choose, though (they have a song list)

If i do make a video, would you vote for me (as long as I was good, of course. If I suck.... just don't vote)

Lucy kissed him, even though she was crying, the tears slipping down her cheeks like the rain that began to fall outside. It was amazing to Lucy, how things could change so quickly. One minute, she felt like she was on top of the world. The next, she was falling into despair.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Ah, I hate that problem, I never know what song to pick, and that's with free choice.

I'd vote for you anyway! I mean, if it's what you want, then I'll happily help you go for it.

Asher kissed her for a little while longer, but then pulled away, because he could feel her tears failling onto his skin, and he wasn't sure what to make of that anymore. He just held her tightly and sniffled, clearing the last of his own tears. And he didn't know how to break the silence either. It weighed heavily on them, but he just didn't know what to say. He had never been much good at this kind of thing.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I just don't want to get my hopes up too much. s:

Lucy murmured, "Asher... make me forget everything. I just want to forget, to let go of everything bad that's happened. Show me how, please." She held him close, finally able to stop herself from crying anymore. She didn't want to cry, she didn't want to hurt.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Well, I'm sure you'll do a great audition video. The best possible thing is just to keep an open mind and a positive outlook whatever happens. Cliché...

Asher didn't say anything, again unable to think of the right words to say to her. He tightened his hold on her and started to kiss her again, lovingly, tenderlty, passionately. He would try anything if it could stop her from hurting and feeling upset.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

xD Thanks for the advice

Lucy kissed him in return, matching his passion, holding to his collar. She realized just how much she depended on him, how he could easily change not only how she felt, but who she was-- and she believed it was for the better. She didn't even think words were needed at that point-- sometimes it was better not to use them at all.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Um, you're welcome, I suppose xD

Asher rolled onto his back subconsciously-- it allowed him to be closer to her, of course. He wanted to carry on, very much so, but one thing was bothering him. "I don't want you to get hurt when I'm trying to make you forget what that feels like to start with.." he whispered, pulling away merely a centimeter away from her, "I'm afraid that that might happen."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Cliche'd advice, even though it's cliche, is definitely good advice. Maybe it's so good that people say it a lot, and so that's why it becomes cliche

Lucy kept her eyes closed, listening intently to what he was saying. She let her mind grasp it, then play with the idea for a few moments, as if trying to analyze what was happening in combination with what could happen. But then she whispered, "I know.. but I don't care."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

That's a good point. So, I hope it helps

It's always good to challenge yourself, anyway, you'll never get anywhere staying in your comfort zone and not trying.

Asher stroked her cheek gently with one hand and said softly, "Okay. And.. You're sure you're ready?" He hadn't noticed it before, but there was a definite tension building between them, with every breath, every word that was spoken.. it dragged out the time further. But it wasn't the same kind of tension that there was when you were afraid, or when you knew something bad was about to happen.. A tension that still made his heart race, but for a totally different reason, and he knew it was because he loved her, and because he had a desperate desire, the likes of which he'd never experienced before, to please her, and to make her forget, like she'd asked him to.