I aM tHe WaLrUs

[Bunny_grl07]

Yes! That's what happened to me last night! Except I woke up at 5 am, because my body thought it was just time to get up >>

Do you have to work on the song for school as well? D:

Lucy kept rubbing his temples, then leaned down and gave him a gentle kiss, a slight smile on her lips. "I love you," she whispered, her lips brushing his, while keeping her hands placed on his temples. "And I'm so glad that you're home." She rubbed her nose against his, then sat up straight again, humming once more.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Oh, I know what you mean, as well.

Yeah, I do. The song itself was written for my coursework. My teacher was supposed to post me some feedback, but he didn't, surprise, surprise..

I feel completely disinterested in everything today. Is that normal? ):

"I love you, too, Lucy," he murmured, returning the kiss, smiling gently and gazing up at her lovingly one she'd pulled away. "I know I'll never leave again. No matter where we go, home is with you, and I'll never leave your side ever again. I could never take it."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

The bee tried to sting me by shooting these huge stinger claw things at me, and I tried to run, but I couldn't run very fast. *shudder*

D: That is pretty much fail.

That's very very normal. I have those days a lot xD

Lucy smiled, then moved so she was lying beside him, holding him in her arms. She looked at him with the special look the she could only give to him, filled with adoration and love. "I'm glad. If you left again, it would be worse than the last time. I'd be even more worried about you, because now I'm less optimistic about those sorts of things."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

That sounds horrible D:

It got better, I think. But I just had no idea what to do with myself, it was weird. It's really unlike me.

Asher smiled, resting his head on his chest slightly, looking up at her. It was nice to be held sometimes, it made him feel so relaxed snd safe, in a different way to when he wrapped his arms around her. "I pity anybody who has to go through what we did. War is a horrible thing. It breaks whole countries, the way it's run, and the families within it. People losing husbands, boyfriends, sons, fathers, friends.. I can't believe people so high up can be selfish on such a high level, when they have more than anybody in the whole world."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I didn't know you had replied! Dx I suck at reading, I think.

I've been having a lot of those moments lately, actually.

Lucy said, "It's difficult to deal with. You never really get away from it when you lose someone you love that way. I sometimes have nightmares about Richard, and then they devolve to nightmares about losing you again. You live with the wounds for the rest of your life, and try as you might, you can't be positive about the war. You can hope, but you learn nothing is ever set in stone, and bad things happen. And I don't think anyone wants this war anymore." She sighed softly, her eyebrows furrowing in frustration.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

That's okay. I only just got on myself. I've not been feeling too well at all today.

"I can imagine.. I mean, I saw people I had known for nearly a whole year-- people who had shared the same food, the same tent, everything we needed, with me-- get massacred before my eyes. And then innocent Vietnamese people, families trying to make lives for themselves, sharing the same fate," Asher said. "It cannot go on much longer, I know that. We can't win against them, we're out of our comfort zone, and they just keep piling in the men, not caring about the death count. And if there is no support here, then something has to give. LBJ has to stop it."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I understand. I hope you get to feeling better soon!

Tazzy, I have 10 days until move in. 10!!! D:

Lucy held him closer to herself, the frown on her face deepening as she thought of everything that Asher had experienced for the past year. He had told her how terrible it had been, but words and letters could never truly show the horrors, or convey the feelings that he'd felt. She wished that there was more she could do, but she knew it wasn't possible. Unless she went through it herself, she would never be able to quite grasp it completely. "Asher," she said softly, her voice soft and comforting. But she didn't say anything else-- she couldn't say anything else. The thoughts and emotions that filled her were too overwhelming for that. She simply closed her eyes and buried her face in his hair, kissing it softly.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

^ Just in case you didn't see =)

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I'm getting there, don't worry. I just saw Breakfast Club first and missed this.

10 days? Wow, that's really close. O:

Asher wrapped his arms around her gently, holding her close, soothing her, getting her to stay silent. "It's okay. Things will get better. They always do," he murmured. "I wish the cause had been worth all the loss, but people can be forgiving. I know I will be, even though it was wrong, people make mistakes."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Sorry. I don't mean to be annoying D:

Yeah. I'm really getting nervous about it, actually. Terrified is the better word, I think.

Lucy said, "I don't know if I can forgive. I know I sound like a terrible person, but I was robbed of one of my closest friends, and I was nearly robbed of you. And to think about how many families-- here and across the sea-- have lost people they love... I just... I can't let it go. Maybe I will someday, but i certainly can't right now. And, unfortunately, LBJ hasn't tried to fix the problem yet, he's only making it worse. It's frustrating to me."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

You're not, it's fine

Just focus on how exciting it's going to be! =D

"I can't hold grudges, Lucy. That's just me. It was horrible, but somebody had a reason that they thought was the right reason to do it. It was never the intention to cause death or make so many mistakes. They can't erase what they've done, but they can try to do something to put back."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Okay, as long as you're sure.

I try, but I'm very nervous about being three hours away from home. I'm scared something will happen to a family member, and I won't be able to get back home.

Lucy sighed and said, "I know, and I really admire that, Asher. I just... That's not me. And the only reason we're in this war is because of colonization gone wrong, and France wanting to hold onto land that isn't theirs anyway. It's a stupid reason to send men and women and children to their deaths." She sighed again, anger at the whole situation seeming to flare up inside of her. After everything everyone had been through, she'd had enough. "And when people try to protest, peacefully, they end up getting arrested or hurt. Nobody will listen."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Positive. You know I love you, Becca

I know, we talked about this before, I remember. They're probably worried about you being away, too. But they're letting you go because it's important to them and important to you, it's your future.

"It's not about land this time, Lucy, despite what they tell you," Asher told her. "They want you to believe that, but once again, it's America's fear of Communism spreading and taking over the world. So, actually, they may be taking away a chance for people to be equal in their minds. But I can see that they don't want it to come here. They just shouldn't stop other countries if that's their choice. But, we were fighting for people for a reason. South Vietnam didn't want to be Communist, but they were being forced. I think that the only good thing we did was try to help them."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I love you too

*Sigh* And it's crazy, because suddenly everyone is moving into their dorms and it's just-- wow. we're going to be going our separate ways and becoming adults.

Lucy said, "I'm so aggravated, Asher! This isn't right, and it's not fair either. I should know by now, that life isn't fair, and it won't ever be fair, but..." She sighed and sat up, cradling her head between her hands, frowning deeply. "Either way this war goes, they won't be free. They'll either become a part of north Vietnam, or they'll be owned by France. There is no winning here. And every second, the losses get even bigger and bigger. Sometimes I wish we were isolationist. Then we wouldn't have to go and hurt others, and others wouldn't hurt us. But that's an idealistic view, just like wishing the world could get along." She looked out the window, falling silent again, her frown softening.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Yeah, I bet.. I don't really know what to say that will help, I have no idea of what it's like.. :S

"War isn't fair. The world isn't fair, but people have to try and make it that way. But, unfortunately, because of different religions and beliefs, because of selfish and unselfish people, it can't happen completely. But we have to try and make it as fair as we can," Asher said. "France don't own them anymore, they said. If we could have won, which we can't, they would have been a little more free. And we are supposed to be isolationist, but Truman ended that through the Cold War. But, if we didn't get involved in Vietnam affairs, then maybe we would have been blamed for sitting and watching a country fall and doing nothing about it.. There's no easy way around any of it, at all. All I can say is whatever their reasons for starting it, they've changed. And that's when it has to stop."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I'll probably bawl for a good long time, and then I'll try to get over it. xD

Hey, I'm gonna start pm'ing you! Okiday? Okiday.

Lucy sighed and said, "I just wish they would listen to the people who are taking a stand, instead of locking them away where nobody can hear them. I feel like we aren't supposed to question anything-- we're supposed to be like a herd of sheep. If they tell us to walk off a cliff, they won't let us ask why, we won't have a choice." She laid back on the bed and took Asher's hand. "How many more people have to die before they realize we can't win? When we started out, things seemed better, but at this point we need to think of what could happen if we don't back out. We're losing men left and right, and it's not getting any better. Our luck is running out."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Yeah, you'll be fine.

Okiedokie. I should warn you, though, I'm getting lazy today because I'm tired, so I'll be a bit slow..

"That's politics for you. They can't admit failure. I think LBJ will hold it out until the next election. He won't reapply, and both parties will have to promise to put an end to it, because it's the only way to win," Asher replied, squeezing her hand gently. "I'd love to know whether the world would just work if there was no money invented, no politicians.. Animals live that way, no wars there."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

xD Well, I don't mind. I've been somewhat lazy all day, so no worries.

Oh my gosh, a bunch of people want our community theater to do "Seussical" for the summer show. It's WAY too soon after the high school production D:

Lucy nodded and said, "If there were no countries or possessions or anything, the world would be a very different place. Cleaner, maybe more peaceful... Maybe that's how the world was meant to be, I don't know. But then, we might not have ever met, or even been born, because our families had to get over here somehow. And if there weren't any boats, that couldn't happen. Besides, we can't go around always wondering about what could have been. We have to focus on today, and the future. But mostly today. And today, you're here with me, holding my hand, and you don't have to go away ever again."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I think I'll turn in earlier tonight, actually. And have a real 'get better' day tomorrow.

Yeah, that's way too soon.

Asher nodded and said, "I'd prefer it if we didn't talk about it so much now. I've done my part, and I just want to focus on being home again," he smiled slightly, leaning his head back against the pillows. "It's so wonderful to be home."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

That sounds like a good plan. Get lots of rest, drink plenty of fluids, and make sure not to strain yourself too much.

I'm rooting for "Into the Woods" ;D

Lucy nodded and said, "And I'm glad you're home, too. Things were too different without you. I mean, there was less laughter, nobody ever used the art stuff, and it was lonely and boring." She pulled his hand over and kissed it gently, smiling. "And I'm really glad that we're getting to spend time together. It's a good thing I'm off work today-- the others decided to fill in for me so I could relax today."