Guruofguru64, my apologies for the delay!:
No songs come to my head...straight-shooting instead!:
"....I see you enjoying fond memories. You also learn to create new moments. There is comfort and cosiness in nostalgia. I see you drinking hot beverages and acting like a happy old man...You learn the power of your mind... I see you finding ways to enjoy every moment in the present. You are drinking some sort of lemon tea with someone you love. You get pleasure from writing in a diary and something like Spirograph...a geometrical patterned art that helps you unwind and meditate. I don't know what the kids are playing with these days, but whatever the modern version of that is...*mumble mumble life moves so quickly*
If you follow your desire to temporarily rest, follow your dreams and re-stock your energy...you will be able to move to your future with more hope and energy. If you feel inspired to live as a Grampa for a few days..let yourself do that! Obasan approves! *I'm an old lady...but you get what I mean I suppose*
I also feel like a stringed or wooden instrument is the key to your creativity...if I may so bold...approach music again for fun and not work. Try something new, listen to a new genre. When you feel ready don't let life pass you by, you are brave and have this in spades during youth...when you feel inspired do the thing and don't look back!
Better to make mistakes and learn -- than learn nothing and stay in one place in fear of making mistakes. Your worries will decrease when you put yourself first.
A quote from the Tao: "Stop thinking and end your problems." There is so much power in your thoughts & emotions. you control more than you think, and just need a cup of tea (or your version of a soothing beverage) and a fresh start.
When you are doing your new fandangled Spriograph, a new path will be revealed. The only warning is not to quash it with expectations, worries and the beliefs or judgement of others. Only listen to yourself in silence and without input from others. It looks like a cooler month when this happens because I see cossiness around it. Warm-hued colours...that is what Obasan sees!
Just don't do it like erh...like this lost soul:"
Lots of walking....pleasant sunny paths...the creativity gathers your energy.