I'm getting scared.
We are driving down to Florida tomorrow early in the morning, i'm seeing his body.
i don't want to see a body.
i am afraid of dead people, and the idea of death.
i never seen a dead body before
what do i do?! i'm freaking out!!!
I know its prolly a little late and you prolly already went. But, when my father in law died, we had an open casket viewing for those who wanted to see him. Everyone will understand if you do not want to actually see the body, it is completely normal to not want to see it, it is just that the choice is there because some people need the closure to move on. When the actual funeral is going on, you will not see the body. I have never been to a funeral where they had the casket open during the ceremonies and they are never open during the burial itself.
Regardless of how you feel now, you will be overwhelmed with grief once the funeral happens, at least that is how it has been in my experiences. You dont have to know the person to feel bad for the people around you. Just give lots of love and support to your family.
Nothing like this (family falling to their death) has happened to me, but my father in law died while we were on vacation in las vegas, I was talking to him one minute, told him "Hold on, I will be right back, gotta get my ticket" and he said "Okay", I went up to the ticket counter (we were checking in for our flight to go home) and I heard something drop, it was his bag, I said "Don?" and he didnt respond, I ran over and he was dead. Husband pulled him out of his wheelchair (he couldnt walk because the food poisoning had made him so sick and the RD was doing a number on him) and did CPR for 15 minutes before the medics arrived. He took 1 fast breath during that time, but his heart never started again. I didnt know him very well, I had only known him for about 3 years at that point, and he was sick during the entire time due to alcoholism and the disease had changed him, but I miss him dearly. This was 4 months before our wedding.
Cherish your loved ones, wether you know them well or not. Because they will eventually be gone. Do not be scared of death as it happens to everyone, it is just the next step in our adventure of life, it is natural. Do not mourn over someone when they leave this world, it is all right to miss them, but when they leave, they are in a better place.
I ramble alot, sorry, but yeah. Sorry about your cousin, I hope your family takes the time they need to grieve.
