I aM tHe WaLrUs

[KERFUFFLE]

Well, I will. You make the next time sound so far away, but I plan on seeing Elena as often as I can.

"Well. They can separate us, and take you away from me. But the truth is you'll always be a part of my life. And I won't let it be cut short, that's so, so easy but I won't stop trying until I'm back with you." Asher kissed her back with equal, tender and loving passion as opposed to the earlier roughness. But it meant just as much.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

xD sorry!

I'm glad you'll get to see her often. So what kinds of things did you do in Germany?

Lucy pulled her lips from his gently, then rested her face in the crook of his neck, sighing softly. She closed her eyes, feeling tired from the craziness that the day had brought on. Plus, she wanted to try and calm herself before she did or said anything else.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Oh, sorry, I didn't mean it like that

Oh, gosh. What didn't we do. They live about a twenty minute train ride from the city of Nuremburg (or Nürnberg, as they call it in Germany) so we went there a few times, for shopping and looking around. It's beautiful there, I love it. They also have this new place that wasn't there when I went last year. It's a temporary beach that they built in the city centre, with palm trees, bars, beach volleyball courts and deck chairs. It's SO awesome <3

We also went to Munich (München), the Bavarian capital, and Plzen in the Czech Republic for shopping and sightseeing. And, oh gosh, Eli and I just talked so much. Sometimes we just ended up sat in the weirdest places and talked for hours and hours. I miss her <3

"I love you so much, Lucy," Asher whispered before closing his eyes, also trying to calm himself down. He thought about leaving an awful lot. How he would do anything to not have to go so he could stay with Lucy. How he would find his way back to her somehow.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

That sounds like so much fun! You're SO LUCKY!

Did you have to know a lot of German when you went there?

Lucy sighed softly again, curling up so she would be further enveloped in his arms. "I love you," she finally whispered into his ear, letting her breath tickle it softly. "And we're going to be together. And everything is going to be all right. You'll see."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Well, I don't actually learn German anymore because I'm fluent, I wasn't allowed to take it any further. So I had to use the nine months or so of German I learned last year. It was hard, and I felt terrible but the family didn't mind. Their English, especially Elena's, is outstanding.

"We will be together. I know that much," Asher agreed, speaking softly into her ear. "I only wish we didn't have to be separated in the first place. I'll be useless there. I don't know how to fight, how to fix things like weapons-- I've never touched a gun in my life--, how to come up with military tactics. A whole year of doing something of which I have no passion or desire or knowledge for, and whole year of being away from someone I have so much passion and desire for. A whole year of getting to know you better, doing crazy things while we're still young.. So I don't worry that things won't be alright when I return, or worry over whether I will return. I worry over the time I'm losing in being away on such a pointless, horrible exercise."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Phew! At least the family was understanding!

I'll post when I get back, I gotta go to the show. Last performance!

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Well, they know that nine months of a language doesn't get you very far. I tried to speak when I could and that was good enough for them

'Kay! Break a leg

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Well, I don't actually learn German anymore because I'm fluent, I wasn't allowed to take it any further. So I had to use the nine months or so of German I learned last year. It was hard, and I felt terrible but the family didn't mind. Their English, especially Elena's, is outstanding.
"We will be together. I know that much," Asher agreed, speaking softly into her ear. "I only wish we didn't have to be separated in the first place. I'll be useless there. I don't know how to fight, how to fix things like weapons-- I've never touched a gun in my life--, how to come up with military tactics. A whole year of doing something of which I have no passion or desire or knowledge for, and whole year of being away from someone I have so much passion and desire for. A whole year of getting to know you better, doing crazy things while we're still young.. So I don't worry that things won't be alright when I return, or worry over whether I will return. I worry over the time I'm losing in being away on such a pointless, horrible exercise."

Phew! And now I've officially been a cast member of "The Sound of Music". I'm kind of sad, but kind of happy, too!

Ahhhhh, I'm sorry if the rps are getting boring, btw D: You seem sort of disinterested xD

Lucy sighed softly and nodded in agreement, completely torn up by this whole turn of events. Up until this very day, they had counted themselves lucky that Asher hadn't been called out yet, and had a hope that maybe he wouldn't. Lucy knew that she shouldn't have had her hopes up, especially after what had happened before, but she wanted to believe that they deserved a chance at their own happiness. Obviously, she was "wrong", and it hurt. "Asher, no matter where you are, or what you do, remember that I'm still here, and that I'm thinking of you just as much as you're thinking of me." She pulled him closer, then yawned softly, the day's turn of events having exhausted her. "Let's go to bed and get some sleep. It's getting late, and we want to make sure the hearing goes well tomorrow. If not, it could mean that you..." Her voice trailed off as she thought of the terrible things that could happen to him if he had to go into combat. Shaking her head, she got to her feet and led him to their bedroom.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Yeah, I bet. I'm glad it went well, though! I always hate when shows end, it's pretty sad. It's also that all the hard work's gone in for only three or four shows!

Oh, no, please don't think it's you, or the RPs being boring at all. I didn't realise that it was that obvious, actually, that I was a little disinteresting right now. I just got on during Saturday, took one look at all of the RPs I'm in and thought, "I can't be bothered to write at all right now.." I guess it's from being away from a computer for the best part of ten days, feeling I have other things to do. But I feel bad about it because I so rarely get to talk to you, and because I used to be on so much.

I really am sorry, I didn't realise that it came across in my posting ):

Asher nodded tiredly and slipped off of the couch, squeezing her hand reassuringly. He offered her a smile, though his eyes showed he was upset-- his eyes, they never hid his true emotions. He said to her, "You know I'll never forget for a moment that you'll be here. I'll never forget anything about you at all, not least that you love me and that you'll be thinking of me." He got into bed and pulled her into his arms, her back against his chest, and pulled the covers over them. "And don't think about that. Hold onto what happened today, because it's been the most wonderful way to spend my last day with you. For a year, anyway."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I'm really sad about being apart from all my friends, but I need some de-stressing time. SO, it's a bittersweet thing.

I thought you were getting tired of me xD I was like, "I'm sorrryyyyyy... I'm boring"

Lucy nodded slightly, her eyes filling with tears, but she cried silently, not wanting him to hear her get upset again. He was already worried enough as it was, and she couldn't add to that. It would be selfish and unkind of her, because to cry in front of him was one of the most horrible things she could do-- at least in her eyes. "I'm going to write to you every day, and make sure that I spray a little bit of rose onto each page, so you can feel like you have a piece of home with you. because that's what we have together. A home." She had to smile when she talked about their life together, and how wonderful it had been so far. "I'm glad this day was a good one for you, Asher. I had hoped it would be."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Yeah. I know what you mean.

No, not at all. You know I love you. Would I have written on your wall while I was in Germany if I didn't? I mean, there were tons of friends who I probably should have said Hi to but didn't xD

No, I'm actually tired of England. I'm tired of being away from Schwaig and Elena.

Asher didn't voice his thought that no matter what she did to remind him of her, it just wouldn't be the same if it wasn't her physically being there. Perfume on paper, even if it was the one he loved her to wear, wouldn't smell the same, because it wasn't on her. But it would be enough until he could come home to her once more. "And I'll send you photos. And I'll draw things for you and decorate the paper all over when I write you. And I'll call you every time I get the chance." He held her closer to him, arms tightening, burying his face in her hair, "A home is definitely what we have. And I promise when I get back that we'll still have that. You know they say absence makes the heart grow fonder. Well, I think by the time I come home my heart will be so fond I might actually pluck up the courage to do something I've thought about a few times.." He cut it off there, not sure whether to say it or not.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

I wish I could visit somewhere like England or Germany or Spain. But, I am a poor college kid now, with no money to do craziness.

I'm sorry I was worried xD

Lucy listened to him intently, nodding at all of the things he said he would do. She hoped he would have time, although, in a weird way, she almost hoped he would be too busy to think about her very much during the day, because she hated the thought of him being sad all the time. All she wanted was for him to be happy, even if it was hard to do. "You'd better," she told him. "I'm going to miss your voice, and the way you draw things, and just... everything! I think I'll have to get my brother to move in util you get home, because I'm going to be so lonesome without you. As pathetic as that sounds." But then she heard the last thing he said, and her eyebrows shot up. "Are you talking about... what I think you're talking about?" She whispered.

 

[KERFUFFLE]

Well, I'd love to visit America. But I don't even have a job, and it'd dead expensive. But it's pretty cheap to fly to Germany, thank goodness. I hope to visit at Christmas time, actually, because they have a world famous Christmas market in Nurnberg.

Oh, no, you don't have to be. I'm sorry that I came across as disinterested in talking to you, I didn't realise it looked that way.

"I will, don't even doubt me for a second. I'll never miss an opportunity. You'll know that, if you don't get a phone call at the usual time, or a letter comes late, it's because I wasn't able to have the opportunity, not because I didn't want to or try to," Asher told her with a lighthearted chuckle. He kissed her neck once and smiled against her skin after that. He murmured, "Well, if I'm right about what I think that you think I'm talking about-- if that makes any sense-- then, yes, that's what I'm talking about."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Christmas in Germany? That sounds FREAKING AWESOME!!!!

If you visit America, you have to visit me!

It's fine, no worries xD

Lucy smiled delightedly, rolling over so she could remain in his arms, but face him, her chest against his. "You've been thinking about marriage? Really?" She whispered excitedly, unable to contain her happiness. Although, in a way, it was bittersweet. She was sort of glad that he hadn't asked sooner, because it would have made it even harder for them to be separated. It would have killed her, to have been so joyful about getting married, to suddenly have the rug pulled out from under her. "You don't know how happy that makes me! I think that, when you get back, I'll have a definite answer for you. But you have to come home, or you'll never know."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

It would be. Elena's already decided I'm coming. She says I promised-- that's a problem, though, because what if I don't? I'll feel guilty and she'll be disappointed.

"I've been considering it. A lot recently, actually. I was just never really sure if I was ready to ask you. So, like I said.. Maybe that when I get back.. I mean, there aren't many things that I can be afraid of after being out there. Maybe then I'll be a real man and I'll ask you. Because I don't see myself with anybody else, Lucy. I never have, and I never will," Asher told her softly. He was glad that she was so excited by the prospect. Asking her would be made a lot easier because of it.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Well, make sure you discuss it in plenty of time beforehand

OR, if you DO get to go, tell her you can't make it, but then surprise her xD

Lucy gave him a brief kiss, then cuddled close to him, smiling from ear to ear. "Asher, I'm so happy! But I haven't answered yet, so don't get too excited! Like I said, I don't want to officially get engaged or anything until you're ready-- and until you get home. And... I've alway thought you were a real man. You take care of me, and protect me, and you're just so amazing." She kissed him again, then yawned. "Let';s go ahead and get some sleep... I love you, Asher."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

I will. I'm going to ask my parents really soon about it. Even if only I go and come back just before Christmas or something, it'd be fun.

That'd be awesome. Turning up at her house and being like, "MERRY CHRISTMAS!"

"I haven't officially asked you yet, either. It's got to be a little more romantic than this, Lucy," Asher replied with a quiet chuckle. "I've still gotta do a few things, then pluck up the courage. I want it to be exactly the right moment." He smiled and pressed his lips to her forehead. "Thank you," he murmured. "I know I'm not exactly sociable with anybody else, not too good at standing up to people. But I am glad you think I can take care of you. I love you, too, Lucy. Good night."

 

[Bunny_grl07]

She'd definitely be surprised! It would be the best Christmas present ever!

Lucy cuddled closer to him before falling asleep in his arms, a slight smile still on her face. Her sleep was fitful and restless at best, because her dreams were filled with thoughts of war and loneliness. For hours it went on like that, until the alarm clock went off loudly, and Lucy was finally able to open her eyes. She gently kissed Asher's neck, then brought her lips to his ear. "It's time to get up," she murmured, rubbing his back with one of her hands. "The hearing's in three hours."

 

[KERFUFFLE]

It just wouldn't be fair to drop in on her family like that. Unless.. I organise it with her parents in secret so that they know I'm coming, but she doesn't =D

Asher found it equally difficult to sleep, his thoughts and dreams haunted by the idea of being alone, so far away from the only person he had left, whom he truly loved. He awoke rather unwillingly, yawning, and finding it difficult to open his eyes. Eventually, he nodded, giving Lucy a peck on the lips before sliding out of bed to get showered, and then change into something smart.

 

[Bunny_grl07]

Exactly! It would be AWESOME!! =D

Lucy smiled and got out of bed, looking for something nice for herself to wear. She wouldn't try and make her being there a big deal, because this was Asher's battle to fight. She shook her head, disgusted that she had been thinking that way. When he had finished showering, she took one as well, then dried herself off quickly, pulling her blonde hair into a bun. She slipped into her dress shirt and skirt, then did a bit of make up so she would look decently awake and fresh. Inside, she felt terrible, with her restless sleep.