*looks at my previous posts in this topic*
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Ok, I've never really been to the hospital except once when I dislocated my arm. e_e So who knows, I could have anything or I could have nothing.
There are times when I have violent mood swings. For example, just the other day my BF said he got a Play Station 4 for his birthday and I felt burning anger because I thought he should have got Tamagotchis instead. I was typing in capital letters with lots of exclamation points, saying every single thing wrong about him, describing all the times he ticked me off, and saying he was just pretending to like Tamagotchi because he knows I will break up with him if he stops liking it. :|
When these kinds of fits happen, I'm shivering and crying, my head hurts intensely and every breath I take creates a weird gasping, choking, squealing sound...hard to describe.
One of the only things that can help me escape an extreme depressed mood swing is my Tamagotchis... sounds silly but that's when happened when I was having the said rage against my boyfriend. My Tamagotchi Friends evolved and POOF! I picked it up and started happily chatting like, "Oh, I got Knighttchi again!" and then randomly being overjoyed.
Sometimes I swing out of my terrible mood and then go into a...very weird...state of happiness. I feel all giddy and post "random" stuff like, "RAINBOOOOOOOWS!!!!" and "DID YOU KNOW THAT CHEESE IS YELLOW!?!?!?!!111" What else...
**looks through chat history**
Ah.
"IM GONNA KILL MYSELF BUT AT LEAST I WILL GO TO HEAVEN BECAUSE GOD LOVES ME. YOU WANNA COME FOR A VISIT!?!?!! **kills you with a rainbow** YAY HELLO WHO ARE YOU!!!!!!!!?????"
They're not very nice for me but I don't remember much about them anyway, unless I look at chat logs and read what I typed before. ouo' It's exhausting really, and certain things can set me off really bad. I am still happy most of the time, and the mood swings just make life a bit more...eventful... I guess ;/ I'm still happy the way things are, and I wouldn't say I have depression at all.
Just... IDK... sensitive emotions? :|