I'm Sorry to hear about your Brother, I'm sure Where-ever he may be, He's watching over you. *hugs*
I lost My Dad When I was around 10 and a half.
Massive heart attack right infront of me. (Died Right Then and There. Fell off the chair he was going to sit down on for supper. Then He had a Massive heart attack)
I was Super close with my dad, He was my Best Friend. My hero.(His Nickname for me was "Dar-Dar" Which Meant "Darlin' Daughter"
My sister told me That When He Died, like, As soon as he had the heart attack, his eyes focused right on me. So I was the Last person he seen before he Died.
I never Realized he Died right then, I thought He died at the hospital, or in the ambulance.
So When My auntie told me that He was "Gone"...I Bawled my eyes out. Cussed about the Doctors.
Whenever there wasn't school, When My dad would go to work, I'd go with him (He was a Truck Driver, He Hauled pigs to a Maple Leaf Meat Processing Plant)
But When The Funeral Came, My eyes were Dry. No Tears, I felt Sick to my stomach though, But it was as if I didn't want to be there.
(It was a Double Funeral. My Dads, and My Grandpas(My Dad's dad, he died in December of 2003)
I found it Strange, The Friday (he died on Sunday) before My Dad Died, We were both at a store, I saw this Arrangement of Flowers. They were Purple, with Green leaves, and White Text that said "DAD" on it. I never knew they were for a funeral. So I asked my dad "Hey Dad, We Should get one of those for you, It says DAD on it" So He replied "Er, Dar-Dar, Thats a Funeral Arrangement. I'm not Dead Yet!"
Then On Sunday, two days later
He Dies.
As For My Grandpa's death. I wasn't super close with him, but It was still Sad to see him go.
R.I.P - Neil Grant *lastname*: January 18th 1957-May 16th 2004
And Carl Victor *lastname*: January 29th 1933- December 12th 2003