Dislusion of myself

[♥~Dismay~♥]

Lately I've just been... depressed. I don't want to get up in the morning. I don't want to go to school and put up with all the idiots. And I don't really want to be around anyone... at all. I'll explain a little better.

I've been discluding myself from my usual doings. Usually I would watch TV with my family, and eat dinner with them. Today I just went downstairs, ate something that satisfied me, and went straight back up to the computer to avoid eye-contact and conversation. I mean, I just to want contact with anyone. 0_o

School is really... stressful. I have friends who are always hyper, bouncy, and annoying. They steal all my sayings and crap! >.< I make a song, they mix it up. I say something, they make something totally different out of it. They just bug the crap out of me!!!

I yelled at atleast 4 people today. PEOPLE JUST NEVER CEASE TO SOMEHOW GET ON MY NERVES. That's why I feel the need to be secluded. Even from family and friends, almost all the time. And that's when I read, away from everyone else, just to 'be' somewhere else. And that's why black seems to be such a pretty color now...

I've been thinking a lot lately. What's wrong with stupid head? Do I have depression? I know my sister did.... 0_o Please post, if you have a solution or something. I think my head is just about to explode with frustration and stress.

 

[RachelGotchi]

I think you just need a cool down moment o.o;

Have you ever considered meditiation? I mean I'm not sure, unless you are Buddhist, if they have any non Buddhist meditation spots but if they don't I'm sure you could learn to relax your body on your own.

I'm not a phychiatrist though... maybe it just has something to do with growing up? I remember like a year ago I'd just go into my room and cry and I didn't want anybody coming in. Even though I didn't tell anybody so nobody really cared I knew eventually my dad would find out and then he probably would care. So I stopped.

 

[pyonchit]

It stinks having a conscince with a zero tolerance for failure. One little thing, BAM! two hours of sleep gone.

^^; So, to help fight pressure, I do the thing I like most more then anything in the world: drawing. Lol, I never stop drawing. I forgot my paper in a class one day and freaked out. Since I'm alone after school, I turn on the TV while doing my homework or drawing for background noise, as opposed to emo music or something or other. It helps me focus.

Thats what I do. What do you like to do more then anything else in the world?

 

[TigerLily013]

I think you just need a cool down moment o.o;
Have you ever considered meditiation? I mean I'm not sure, unless you are Buddhist, if they have any non Buddhist meditation spots but if they don't I'm sure you could learn to relax your body on your own.

I'm not a phychiatrist though... maybe it just has something to do with growing up? I remember like a year ago I'd just go into my room and cry and I didn't want anybody coming in. Even though I didn't tell anybody so nobody really cared I knew eventually my dad would find out and then he probably would care. So I stopped.

Sounds like you're as fed up as I am when it comes to stress and drama. Lately I've literally stopped talking to people who've I had a hard time communicating with because I am sick of conflict, and at times I just want to be by myself.

My guess is you're having an off time right now and need extra space or extra attention/support from the right source. I know I always feel 10 times better after talking with my best friend since we're so close in bond, but I don't get to speak with him as often as I like. He's a comfort of sorts when needed.

Anyway hang in there. I know there are stupid, annoying and ignorant people out there. Trust me I know how it is. You could be overthinking this. When I overthink negative stuff I tend to also get bummed out and want to just be alone. If you need any support or whatever, PM me.

 

[tweetygirl1026]

All teenagers go through this.

I've gone through it many times.

I don't eat, nor talk to my parents.

My friends just annoy me and I always want to be alone.

How long have you been like this?